I read this morning this is the earliest the Vernal (Spring) Equinox has occurred in 124 years, it’s because of the mathematics of time and fitting that into a calendar.

With the Spring Equinox upon us tonight, I was thinking about some major changes I have made in my life at this time. I’ve also been reflecting the last few days while being in a self-imposed isolation.

Spring is a time of growth and renewal, I’ve started and ended relationships at this time, I’ve had endings and new beginnings in my career, and also moved into new surroundings to begin life on my own. 

This Spring for me is about self-renewal, allowing myself to break open and let new light in, release the pain and sadness I’ve been holding through the darkness of winter. In a few days it will be a year since my mom’s stroke, a moment that changed the way I view life, a moment in which I had no idea of the journey my mom and I would go on that would take her to her last day, while I held her hand and watched her take her last breath so that her soul could join my dad’s. 

This morning there were two pigeons on my balcony, in the almost 5 years I have lived here, that is a first! I looked up the symbolism of pigeons. In China, pigeons symbolize transformation and they are associated with the Chinese concept of yin and yang energy. Chinese associate birds with transformation and the changing of seasons, they believe that a sparrow hawk turns into a pigeon at the end of the winter. Therefore, pigeons symbolize arrival of Spring, new hope, new beginnings and life energy. Birds are also considered messengers from the spiritual realms, I believe the pigeons represented my mom and dad. 

I’ve also been wondering what life will look like in the coming months. Will there be a new normal or will we return to our old ways and habits? What will the overall impact be? All of us will be affected in some way.

My mom’s stroke taught me how temporary everything is and how quickly everything can change. She showed me the beauty of living in the moment enjoying it and letting it go. I’ve always had a hard time letting go.

I’m grateful for the heroes that are supporting our hospitals, emergency crews, infrastructure, grocery stores, pharmacies and the countless angels that are going out to pick up groceries for others. I want to do my part by not getting sick so that those that do can be looked after and get well.

We are also seeing how making changes in our daily lives and the positive impact it is having on the environment, hopefully we can learn that drastic change can make a difference and the naysayers will finally be silenced. Although, there will be some who will never believe the silence.

I know many people are taking time to reflect and grow during this time, those are the ones that will remerge stronger. I’m hoping those who fear inner reflection are being brave enough to start to explore it for the first time, as long as you are breathing, there is hope.

I believe many of us entered 2020 with new hope and excitement because of the new decade. Perhaps this is the best thing that could happen to all of us, sometimes we need a major disruption in our lives to make us wake up and see what is happening.

Death is a part of life and it is never easy to lose someone you love, I’m sad for the families that have lost loved ones at this time, I am grieving with them.

Death is also an awaking. For me, my mom’s death was about starting my life on my own. I have a choice, I can sit back and remain the same or I can do the hard work to feel and release the pain, face my fears. For me, Springtime is a perfect time to break open, feel the pain and let the light in to see what grows.

Wishing you love, light and strength.